Pusherman pusherman send me another line to inhale because I feel
without it I will fail,
Take me to that place where I can find that pot of gold the place where
age never gets old,
Pusherman pusherman sell me just another small hit so I can get lit and
lose thought of all this shit.
So I can soar with birds in the sky lifted high and not worry how I’m
gonna get by,
Pusherman pusherman let me have a little more as I ignore the demons
knocking at my door,
What you serve takes the edge off my swerve and gives me that piece of
pleasure that I deserve.

Pusherman pusherman just give me one last toke as I am lost within the

smoke before the red tape surrounds me and I begin to choke,

Its the high that i seek, I feel invincible so to speak,

this drug takes over and makes me weak.
Pusherman pusherman your drug called love is intoxicating keeps me
waiting never fading for this drug there is no rating.


~The best love that you can give or receive is unconditional~Carla

Another day, a dream away, peace, and serinity,makes its way,
One,two,three,taken from reality, its me, surrounded by a daydreamers destiny,
No more illusions,tainted with dillusions,only intelligent conclusions,
There is no pain, everyone here is sane,no words in vain,no reason to complain,
Love fills the air,innocence is everywhere,points are made clear,there is nothing to fear,
No bills to pay,no deadlines for today,no games to play,sunshines like the month of may,
This castle in the sky,set to sanctify,purify,and happiness can only magnify.

2/26/2008

An inch away from insanity bruised from the calamity and unknown destiny that calls for me,
True purpose hanging outside as I look within knowing not where to begin to place the trials and the sin,
Beaten bloody sent away looking for the brighter day as I send all the good astray,
All around me the questions are hung,as I am sprung, around the twisted tounge that reels in the young.
Choosing between wrong and right,dieing slowly within the plight,can't sleep at night yet fighting the good fight.

2/2/2008

The Instigater
I am not perfection,I seek direction,as I ride upon the erection of lifes hard,
My thoughts are deep,my soul I fight to keep,yet my wounds seep,and my mind is scarred,
Don't take me as a fool, because you will be my tool, as I school you in yet another lesson,
My strength comes from wars within, the trials the sin,as I begin to pen this aggression.
My life I release, letting out the beast, as I write each peice, and you feast upon each line,
I am not a hater, segregator,investigator, intimidater,just an instigater placed here to masturbate your mind.

2/25/2008

Rhetoric unstable events, consequential elements,sparatically crossing the fence,begging for confidence,
Sentiments evaded, segregated,sunlight shaded, morals faded,somewhat baited,
Is this really destiny,do you love me,kissing me gently,I take responsibility,
The dice have been rolled yet again,as we dance upon the sin,of where to begin,and when,
The tempo moves faster,I choose disaster,as I capture the wrath of my master.
Sinking down, I feel the ground, I can barely hear the sound,because the red tape is all around.
Can't place blame, I came, heard your name,and now I swim in the pool of shame.
2/25/2008

Today is a day lost if I continue with out you,
You are the gift left for me each day that I continue,
For our paths were crossed with much reason from above,
As strangers we did meet and it has led to unconditional love,
Countless days countless hours you have placed smiles upon me,
As you wander about embedding footprints in my heart ever so gently,
I can't take for granted the time I am blessed here,
Because of my friends and family's love that I have share,
If my time would expire right now on this day,
I know the love of my friends and family would send me on my way.
Thank you for everything you do be it big or small,
And know I will be there if ever you should call.
2/19/08

11/10/2006

just a little something i posted on my space.

First Of all I have to say Fuck Off!!!

If you are here to talk shit I really do not care!

Nothing said can move me...

If I do not like you its for a reason...

More than likely a really good reason...

I dont kiss ass dont suck dick and never ever have loved a TRICK.....

BITCH

KEEP MY NAME OUT OF YOUR DICK SUCKIN MOUTH!!!

TO EVERYONE ELSE...

THANKS FOR BEING MY MYSPACE FRIENDS!MWUAH!!!

Fom Dusk 'Till Dawn

In life sometimes things seem so complicated, my happiness has faded, but yet I have waited, for the true purpose for which I am created,
I kiss the babes as they go out the door, watching them grow, as they explore, I do adore them as their minds soar,
They bring me light with so much delight even when I am in my darkest night they strengthen me to continue to fight,
From dusk ‘till dawn,

When the world tries to bring me down, cant stand with two feet on the ground, I am left feeling like no one is around, then suddenly I hear the sound,
Saying,” Mommy I love you”
From out of the blue, I again have the strength I need to continue, not forgetting to give credit where credit is due,
From dusk ‘till dawn

It seems to get harder as time passes by, to make it a day without wanting to cry, but yet I still look toward the sky, for my sanity supply,
Thanking God each day I breathe, as the babe’s relieve the way I perceive, because in him I believe, and this gift of life I receive.
From dusk ‘till dawn

I Stand

Spiritual warfare,
The devils delight,
The battle cries louder every night,
The warriors sent to claim victory over it all,
The armor gilded for even the small.
I stand…
A child’s innocence lost in a day,
Forgetting nursery rhymes
Forgetting to play,
Mothers weep,
Losing sleep.
I stand…
A neighborhood pusher man,
Pimps on the street,
Kids being beat,
Bullets with no name,
Drugs are the blame,
I stand…
This is not a game to play,
Its real life its time to pray,
Having faith in what God can do,
Not just for me but also for you,
It’s because of him.
I stand…

Flexwriters Collaboration posted 12/24/07 on My Space

By Lena Washington and Seoulja Girl

Look at me and my Asian ethnicity, what is it that you see?

Does your description fit without knowing my history?

Or do you just look at my slanted eyes the tone of my skin?

Forgetting all substance of knowing me from within.

Is it conceived I am one of the women that can be bought at the store?

Is your vision taken from the movie, the me love you longtime whore?

Excuse me do you know me….

Is it true society has acquired all Asians are Chinese,

We eat Sushi, rice, and yes the old school rhyme we have dirty knees,

Do all Asians require you pay now or is the conception given really foul?

Must we all speak like pho chimmi chan and chow?

Do you see an Asian woman or do you see a chink?

Yeah I said it this one really makes you think.

Excuse me do you know me….

hello, helloyou may have it twisted

about what this brown Sista has in store

so let me give you a clear vision

my skin isn't black it is the color of chocolates

and, caramel, earth and sunset

I don't snap my fingers shake or twist

I ain't just a big booty an a smileor your Mammie

waiting to make cornbread

wit cornrows all up in my head

red scarf an happy like the Aunt Jemima you all see

it is a mystery how you could believe that about us me

hello hello

back to reality

my nails ain't a mile long an my weave ain't sky high

I don't got no baby daddy or receive a welfare check

and spend that on my pappy

drop it like its hot or start fights on my block or like to be called Shawty

No.

Hello, HelloI'm telling you something, you need to know...

This is who I am…

An Asian woman with goals dreams and ambitions.

Refusing to be set below any type of conditions.

Continually my eyes see a brighter light,

Filled with morals values and insight,I value love I value trust and sincerity is a must,

I am faithful caring but not trifling by lust,

This is who I am…Korean by birth and not Chinese,

I speak English after crossing the seas,

I am me I can not be put in a category,

Because I have my very own story,

Knowledge is a Blessing to me each day,

I know I have a purpose each time I pray.

My vagina may be chocolate

But its All the same

I am a woman brown

word magician Descendant of queens

With survival wishes

Future check pusher

into my wallet that is,

And More than a color

But a bearer of hope for the future

I am an intellectual

Hyper sexual Unforgettable

UndeniableSpeaker of truths

Obiama with a pen as my magical tool Quintessential Wo (don't need no) man

Entrenched but not drowning in stereotypes.

Damn, Did you get all that ?

Let me bring it back I am Who you want to be

Regardless of the color of me Baby don't fight

I am who you dream of at night

That is who I am

This is what you see.

You have a pussy so do I....

You have creativity and so do I....

your man did you wrong at one time and so did mine

Experiences only make us strongerwords form within us

Our ink in sync with our flow

Asian and black doing on the pen tip just like that!

Colors turn gray

Colors turn gray

surrounding me

as I cry

indefinitely

desperately

I try to hold on

and

failure

is the hidden secret

which hangs

upon my day

and

my night.

I have sewn cocoons of silk

and

destroyed the gardens

with much regret.

There was a time

I felt so high

as I kissed the sunlit sky

but now that painting has faded.
and

the colors are gray

and

its dark

and gloomy

no more laughter.

no more cheers,
I grow despite the goodbyes

that have placed yesterday as

a memory.

I grow.

Blues

I am now deaf to the music,
I no longer sing the tune,
No more time to dance,
I don’t hear the bass boom.

The band has stopped playing,
The cold silence is in the air,
I am still as a statue,
To move is my own fear.

The lyrics are lost,
With the ones and twos,
I am weakened now,
My silence is the blues.

Walk Dead

When you see me I am now your worst nightmare,
As you close the once opened door,
I take on the responsibility,
I am no longer the lucky charm,
Between the dusk and dawn.
A lesson unforgotten,
Impossible reversal;
I am left unstable,
My body walking dead -
shall reap the seeds sown.
I am left in your head.
Time for darkness again,
Time moves so slow,
The thought haunts me,
You have now walked away,
never to return,
I must walk dead.
Alone.

VOID

Decisions I made will be a constant reminder of why we are not what we were when we first began this journey.
The words were not spoken only sent to me but I heard them louder than anything you ever said to me.
It took away every breathe I thought I could not breathe. Hit me harder than a car crash.
I gasp for air and feel the harsh coldness and pain in what used to be my heart.
My blood barely pumping through my veins as I am depleted.
I wish I were allowed take on your pain as well.
I am dead to you now like I never existed.
The agony I can’t complain because it is well deserved.
I have no excuse.
I am left in the darkness left in the shadows.
This is to be expected.
The promises, the laughter, the fun, the kisses, all but a memory.
The ending so wretched my storms began again.
I am left scarred by the cold truth of my own decision.
I understand I cannot stay within that space as now the void is mine.

Let me be the key to your fantasy,
Let's explore each others ecstasy,
As we endeavour on this new exploration,
Let me pleasure your orgasmic sensation,
Let's enjoy this moment from beginning to end,
As you watch the sillouette of my back bend,
Let me give you pure satisfaction,
As your taken by my asian attraction,
Let's make this into a memorable night,
Taking climax to a whole new height.

Poetic Resume

Inside I have built up emotion
the fury crashes like the ocean
sometimes i wanna runaway
just to see the brighter day
i am overwhelmed with it all
then i hear my ink pen call
as i write about the commotion
my flow calms the crashing ocean
a poetic resume of my soul
helps me to take on lifes toll

to my pisces friend...kindred spirits we ARE...

I can't contain the stimulization from the colorization the noise of loud conversation,
I dislike certain fibers that rub against my skin, my patience quickly wears thin,
I do not know what it does to me, so I cry out conststantly, I am taught to speak emotionally,
I have an IQ higher than the rest, because I am blessed, my social interraction is my biggest test,
I am a boy in a world that does not understand, as my mother takes my hand, counsels me so that I can stand,
I can tie my shoes, get dressed like the rest, its just hard to get my feelings off my chest,
I am very analytical, mathmatical, matter of factual,
The other children think I am weird, everything makes me scared, some days its hard to get my thoughts cleared,
People have this conception that my goal is deception when its only their own perception,
Its been clinically found that I will have my ups and downs even when mommy is not around.
Please understand I am a child with Aspergers.

To My Inspiration..Tunk the smart one....

My Constant

I love the way you walk,
the way you talk,
that sexy smile,
that says let's wait awhile.
The shimmer in your eyes,
it comes as no surprise,
you take me away to paradise.
You are my constant...
That perfect phase,
You continue to amaze,
Take me to that place,
To continue my days,
Your strong your couragious,
So very contagious,
This love is outrageous,
You are my constant...
You shelter me from the rain,
Counsel me in my pain,
Bring me back to feel sane,
But never do you complain,
You lift me up higher,
Like the highest note in a choir,
I have to admire,
You are my constant...
In life I have taken a ride,
Been alone until I let you inside,
Continually you are my guide,
Always on my side,
I am left all in a bliss,
Taking away the painful abyss,
As I am again lost in your kiss.
You are my constant...

To my constant my heart the one that has stood by my side only lifting me higher....

Reinstated

Hesitations, complications, losing patience to your fabrications,
A world of allegations, quick sensations, racist nations, and temptations,
Wretched lies, no surprise, you close your eyes to this demise, no cries, no goodbyes, it is your own pain you disguise,
Morals lost as you exhaust at any cost every path that you have crossed, all sympathy I have tossed,
Apology not accepted you are rejected to what you projected as you have erected yet another hard,
Masturbate with your brain as you drain yet another vein trying to explain your reign of irreversible pain,
Borrow time again you will no win but yet you named me kin I will not let you in,
Conclusions from your illusions, placed delusions, causing emotional transfusions, and uninvited intrusions,
Emancipated I am deflated as you baited twisted and overrated you will never be reinstated.

By: Carla

12/12/2007

Today I see the light that shines so bright, the history that guides me to this night, the fury the hate that has caused the fight, the scorn the mockery in which you delight,
I come to a place where peace resides, to settle the tides, all misery subsides, as I hold on to another one of lifes rides,
I know that there will be better days, this is just a test a simple phase, as I have found a way out of this maze, letting loose of this spinning daze,
Simply put I had to let go, let all emotional warfare flow, taking each blow, it will be all worth it in the end I know,
I know I am not alone in this place, its the victory to overcome that I taste, as I take stride in this race, with each battle that I face, as its now joy that I will chase.