I'm Mama

It's simple, it's been stated,
your a sperm donor,
we jus dated,
So don't be tryin to kick some truth,
cuz you not daddy you silly ass youth,
Let me break it down,
this the way it goes,
I aint one of those roundaway hoes,
I BEEN takin care of mine,
And we doin jus fine,
Befor you and after you,
we do what we do,
still the same,
don't be tryin,
lieing,
to express your name,
Its your loss our gain,
I do not answer petty ass shit,
If you thought you knew,
It's best you quit,
I'm not mad just understand,
you donated but wasn't a dad,
So when you step bumpin your gums,
Add the shit up and equate the sums,
hmmm...did i ever support my own,
naw but i'm daddy,
explain that when they grown.
Tell me one of their favorite games,
oops i forgot you only know their names,
Better yet tell me what the clinic said,
oh you wouldn't know,
you think he's fucked up in the head,
Tell me any of their sizes,
You don't want them, you want prizes,
Shut your mouth don't even bother,
M'fer it takes more than words,
To be a father,
naw it don't just get that good,
don't get it misunderstood,
Cause aint nobody stutin this shit,
Don't want ya around,
time to quit,
Buy yourself a cookie,
for the blessing you made me,
But don't think ever,
your words can fade me,
Cause I know who has been down,
wheneva no one else was around,
I know who puts food on the table,
while your out finding you,
being unstable,
I know how far I have came,
without them calling out your name,
Not mad about what I gotta do,
This is US not about you,
Quit thinkin I'm tryin to cause you drama,
Cuz it's simple you aint even in the equation,
I am and always will be MAMA,
So get with the real,
feel how i feel,
don't be tryin to place blame,
understand still the same,
imma look out for mine,
till the end of time,
have been doing it for a minute,
and not ever gonna quit,
so feed yourself lies if you want,
I'm through,
Smoke that blunt....

AMAZING

Genuinely
you leave me
gasping,
breathless
yearning,
wanting,
to climax,
to your level,
You play each key,
high, low,
without fail,
authentically.

My mind,
intrigued,
My heart,
beating,
in sequence,
to you,
desiring life,
with each octave,
ascertained.

I value,
your essence,
the soft petal,
of your eloquence,
your fragrance,
uncharted,
intellectually,
inspiring,
like no other,
prolific,
euphony,
I cannot deny,
you are,
AMAZING....

I stand still with breaths of hope,
Intertwining the twisted rope,
The reverence of ambitions set ahead,
My mental intellect to be fed,
The fragrance of peaceful day's,
Revealing guidance through this maze,
The ambience of your love from afar,
Shall not reap the scorns that scar,
Not another day not another hour,
Do i choose to empower,
This fueled fire,
As it chases my hope my desire...

Diary

Lemme go off again,
Let you within,
This seoul of mine,
Right on time,
Imma be fine,
Cause it will be,
jus me,
at the front line,
evolving,
toward my very own,
Destiny,
I may stumble,
But don't get it twisted,
This woman,
Strives,
And If you blink,
You missed it,
The haters,
The fakes,
Don't try to stop,
Just sink,
Below,
Cause Imma show ya,
Where to put it,
And how to go,
I don't have time,
For nothin but REAL,
Just read the icies,
Of the diamond words,
Get inspired,
and feel
my flow...

Listen to the beats,
That keep me,
Constantly,
Thriving,
Surviving,
Diving,
Into the deep,
The hooks,
that make me,
Remember,
What to lose,
and who to keep,
These tracks,
Hold memories,
The emery's,
That scratch,
More realities,
Than I can speak,
Writing to,
The old school jams,
Throw backs,
Forgotten tracks,
Filled with,
Facts,
Of Love,
Healing,
Lust,
Hate,
Desire,
My Ambitions,
My Fire,
That fuels,
All echoes,
In my mind,
Of each challenge,
I accomplish,
to become,
Better,
Grounded,
and
Divine.

Talkin bout,
The greatest,
Beats,
The tightest,
Flow,
I'm mesmerized,
upon thoughts,
And let em go,
For all to see,
All to read,
My Life,
Written,
My Poetic,
Diary.

Anything Goes

Words, adverbs, verbs, adjectives, nouns,
All together making sounds, of laughs, cries, anger, and tears,
Confessions, sins, grins, ends, all placed on paper over the years,
The silent pages screaming out for all to see,
The depth, the character, ambitions, and passions inside of me,
Who would know the hate, the anger, the pain,
The rants, the raves, day's of going insane,
If it weren't for my silent flows no one knows,
No mediator just a place where anything goes.

Let's make it happen...

Lets make it happen,
Look out here we come,
No limits, just us,
Showin everyone,
Invincible Connection,
Sensational Erection,
Baby let's do this,
Ready,
Set,
Go,
No more holdin back,
No more stoppin this flow,
Cuz I'm holdin you,
You feelin me,
Time to shine,
That's what we do.
Love overload,
Promises told,
We got this,
Taking action,
Deuce bein bold,
Breakin cycles,
Writen Titles,
the time has come,
Let's see the world,
We sweatin no one.

New Era

Lets just plan today,
Never losing sight of tomorrow,
Canceling all the days of pain,
Losing the songs of sorrow,
No more chasing dreams,
Because they are right here,
Coming true like never before,
In the moments we share,
Insatiable attraction,
But the time is now,
Me loving you,
An easy satisfaction,
No need to know how,
A new era, a new time,
No ocean I wouldn't swim,
Not a day I want to miss,
Not a mountain i will not climb,
Just for your tender kiss.
It is me and you,
Believing in what we share,
Don't need approval,
It is just us here,
Oh I can breathe,
I can see so clear,
I can sing a sweet song,
Dance to a new beat,
Just because you are near.

Love Divine

Chocolate, strawberry's and cream,
You are the reality to my dream,
All before I have stood in line,
But now you are my love divine,
Loving,
Caring,
Amazing,
One of a kind,
Who could ask for more?
Strength,
Integrity,
Ambition,
True Love,
It's worth fighting for...
Coffee, tea, and lemonade....
Your every love song ever played.
The whole world could be fine,
If they found a love this divine.
Persevering,
Intelligent,
Heroic...
Can not be out shined...
He truly can't ever be defined.
This love that stays on my mind,
The one and only Love Divine....

IF YOU

If I could hold you close, embrace the silent cheer, feel the warmth of your skin, smell your fragrance in the air,
I would take the moment, and never let it go, dangle like a shining star, and this love you should know,
If I could wash away the dirt, i would make it shiny and clean, but this i can't as you know, so it's time to show you what I mean,
Each day for us is a new endeavor, i don't want to take for granted, your love i want to share forever, in my heart eternally planted,
The seeds i have sown have been many, good ones, bad ones, mistakes i can't count, there have been plenty,
My past reaps my future and every counterpart, but no more doe's it define me, or the love I have in my heart,
The options that I made for you in the past , really were not there, but if you allow me to, i would love to show you just how much i care,
Our only obstacle is self and God our only direction, please know i love you, you hold my deepest affection,
If i could kiss your lip's and caress your skin, show you I am yours, i would give you what i feel from within, and wipe away the blurs,
I know each day is a challenge, more like a mystery, being unsure of intentions, seeing into reality,
Just know I desire to love you, unconditionally, with all i have to give, i choose morals to abide by for you and our family,
Hand in hand, day by day, seeing the world with you, it will take you walking away, for me to say i'm through,
Because until that day come's i will be your wife, owning each vow i have spoken to you, continually striving to live our life, for blessings to shine through,
Let's take it day by day, moving toward our goal, let's make dreams come true, making the other half whole,
I love you to no end, I can't put in word's what I would do, but if you are really ready, it is a new beginning for me and you.

To my husband....

Intervention

Now its came to me, more like a positive epiphany, its right in front of me, for all the word to see, it's called reality,
I can't change mistakes I have made, my life i cannot trade, i need to let this hurt fade, befor the demons take me away and invade,
My soul has not been taken, my wisdom is not mistaken, my world may be shaken, but there is no more frontin and no more fakin,
My thoughts I now convey, the burdens i will lay,give them to the Lord each day, and secure it with the words I pray,
I own it, i live it, in my spirit, i have to forgive it, the options i will stand on and now commit, bit by bit,
I see who is for me, and what i need to believe, what i need to do, so i can receive, and what mistakes i need to stop and start to perceive,
Just because i say this, doen't make my wrongs right, just because I beleive this doesn't mean I won't cry at night, i see i am losing the battle, and need new intervention to defeat my plight.

Silent Liar

I hear your calling me a liar in quiet silence,
But it is in the words you don't speak,
I can't deny you your own opinion,
But that jus really aint me,
But I can't help trying,
To show you all,
Possibility...

Trials tribulations that is what is in the front of you and me,
I want to over come this together and learn to trust,
But are you really ready for it all of good and bad,
For the the battles ahead we look upon,
The beginning of what we never had,
Taking time to mend our souls,
Serenity...

Can't play like I have all the answers you want,
But I know if I am blessed with the chance,
There isn't any time to front,
So ask me what you will,
Tell me what you see,
Can we be one,
Security...

Funny how past effects all future incidentally,
I have no more words to offer now,
So you can love or leave me,
But either way I mean,
Exactly what I say,
For me you are,
Eternity...

Part 2

Forced to touch the blue note, pull it from the sky, sing the song that has carried me through,
throw in what has made me cry,
Deny the evil for my closest cares, take it and run, overcome my fears, there is more out there than this I just know,
Circles causing death to clowns, chasing every rainbow, the red balloons have burst, the painted face no more,
Time for healing, unveiling truth, and exploring endless possibilities, overcoming death but respecting all memories,
Not saying it won't come again, just saying I am going to try, to kiss this last dark night, and tell the rest goodbye,
The hexes are there, but I can go on breathing if I know, it didn't take anyone but me, to make myself glow.
So my invitation starts right here with me, the delight of knowing, i have endless possibility's.

What it's about....

It is not about the decisions I have made,
It's all about what i take from them,
What i do with what I take,
And how i choose to,
Proceed...

It is not about just myself so selfishly grieving,
It is about the journeys i walk away from,
What I choose to do better now,
And what I choose to leave,
Succeed...

It is not about the size of the mountain,
It is what it takes to overcome it,
What I do in training,
And it will happen,
Defeat...

It is not about forgetting then it has no meaning,
It is about life and living to the fullest,
What I do to persevere,
And how I continue,
Memories...

Baggage

Missed opportunities, deceitful unities, broken communities, all baggage locked up and payin the fees,
Gigantic in size, heavy despise, hopeful cries, all twisted within the judgmental eyes, breaking down she tries,
Lost even with GPS, lost in a mess, who woulda guessed, as her heart confessed, the imperfection that's tainted her dress,
No more beauty only iniquity, losing upon ambiguity, who cares about sanity, now its all probability,
Baggage in piles, hidden by smiles, the classic styles, of her trials, the alcohol carries her now for miles...

Poetic Death

When I die do not mourn over my life's end,
Allow my poetic reflection to be your muse,
Feel the laughter I once carried,
Through the scribble of my pen,
Hear the def tones of my passion,
Playing upon your minds eye.
Remember me shouting in silence,
Because on paper is where I cried,
Through adjective's, verb's, and noun's,I plead,
All of my heart in the word's I bled,
My life's written in a spread,

My depth exhaled by breaths I have taken,
In between the pages I have exhausted upon.
Remember the things I did not take for granted,
The Poet's were the seeds to my inspiration planted.
My soul defined by every word embedded.
When I die, only then will my lips remain closed,
Yet still I will speak, emotion exposed,
Allow my words to be your newest endeavor,
Death to a poet, yet I speak forever.

My Sin

Caught between the facts of reality and the dreams of the fantasy,
A golden dream broken from my very own action,
Chest tightening with the thought of it all,
There is no excuse good enough,
The pain is not bad enough,
I have lost this battle,
Already Mentally.

I have cried tears that could fill oceans of guilt around this world,
I fight constantly all alone within my very own soul,
I do not need the pity I don't feel sad for me,
I have am now facing the wicked path,
The one I despise the most,
Only this time I own it,
My Reflection.

To hate the weakness and fight for the strength which is pure,
But then to allow self to overcome and take it away,
The whole morale I abide by is contaminated,
Inconsiderate there is no real excuse,
I have raped my own conscious,
Reaping evil thoughts,
My Demons.

I feel this I will allow to haunt my ever being for eternity,
The silence of scraping sounds will echo all my life,
As I scream from within me in a silent web,
Evolving yet held by my shame,
Hell has my name on it,
Like a firey scribe,
My Sin.

Lost In Time

Kiss my lips, seductive passion,
Feel my heart beating,
Chain reaction,

Slowly caressing, sexual sensation,
I need only you,
You are my stimulation,

Arouse me, place me upon your lips,
Let me come inside you,
As I drown your chin between my hip's,

Pleasure me, while I pleasure you,
Don't be shy now,
You know what to do,

Bring it, Bring it all,
Let me endorse you standing,
With your back against the wall,

Legs Locked tight, Around your waist,
Back curved,
Breathing aloud, Face to face,

Chest to chest, hearts beating,
The orgasmic endorphine,
You been needing,

Explosive Passion, so sublime,
As you come inside me,
It's pure ecstasy lost in time.

I AM

I am like the rainy day, you make the rainbow,
I am a sailboat stuck out at sea, you make the wind blow,
I am lost in the dark night, you always find me,
When I have fear, you love me unconditionally.

I am a bird with a broken wing, you help me to fly,
I am a tiny pebble, you are the stone that helps me to try,
I am the foggy glass, you make me clear,
When I am outta control, you help me steer.

I am Pandora's box, you are my peace,
I am locked up, you hold the key's,
I am the bitter, you are the sweet,
When I feel half, you make me complete.

Suicide

Slitting my wrist
Who will miss
the real me
Resignation
To obligation
Pain is what I
Need.

Memories Set
My life's bet,
Desensitized,
Self Destroying,
Never enjoying,
Deaf to lies,

What I saw,
My firewall,
My Boundaries,
Controlling me,
So Selfishly,
Living miseries,

Feeling faint
Blood like paint
Catastrophe
Deviation
from revelation
I am no saint
Bleeding emotionally.

Tetracty...Something New I Tried....

Love
Healing
Therapy
Everlasting
The purest feeling has taken my soul
Taken over my own heart beats control
Insoluble
Inviting
Feeling
You