August 15, 2008 - Friday

Pen Addiction.... I know a mansion can't be built overnight, A round can't be made without a fight, I live upon the dreams,goals,and ambitions, Mesmerized on completing my life's missions, As I encompass each intricate detail, Picking apart the areas of where I fail, Only to become stronger, wiser, and selfless, To love unconditionally and be at my best, I know the kool in kool aide can be beat, Without the sugar it's just not so sweet, George Washington can really make a woman dance, Yet does not guarantee a heartfelt romance, I have had love, lived love, been in love, Still don't completely understand all of the above, I know that sometimes even when you give it your all, The pawn can take over and the King can take the fall, I have to stay confident keeping my goals in sight, Recording when I was wrong and when I was right, Taking notes along the way, Knowing when to go and when to stay, Being sincere, true, and honest within, Never letting go of where I have been, Knowing my true addiction is my pen...

August 14, 2008 - Thursday

It’s taken alot of time and many years... It's taken alot of time and many years, To overcome obstacles and work through fears, To come to a point in my life where it just feels right, Letting go of the demons that keep me up at night, It's taken alot of time and many years, To forgive and march on through my many tears, To find that guidance that luminous light, To allow my wings to finally take flight, It's taken alot of time and many years, To understand truly what patience bares, To breakthrough the chains that held me down, So that I could see why I was still around, It's taken alot of time and many years, To see the problem was not mine but theirs, To stop making excuses for people who don't matter, Stop being persecuted by ignorant chatter, Seeing I was walkin down a beaten path, Where no one could solve my internal aftermath, It's taken alot of time and many years, To pick up the pieces from the broken mirrors, The shattered heart the cold chill ways, The fallacy love with the unsettled gaze, It's taken alot of time and many years, To truly understand the lesson that everyone hears, Two hearts that now coincide as one, Breathe now baby we have just begun, The challenge we take comes from within, The debt we pay arises from sin, Not taking for granted not even a minute in time, This inseparable encounter so sublime, Trust me.... It's taken alot of time and many years...

August 9, 2008 - Saturday

You Current mood: focused Is it enough that I hold you close and look into your starlit eyes, Just to see my sunrise through the moonlit skies, Do I take all of your breath away when my heart pounds and we lay, Only to reflect upon accomplishments made each day to begin things our way, Isn't it quaint when I place my hand on your face, only to feel the moment we embrace, Never to erase, the moments that have brought us to this place, I feel like la tee da on a sunlit cloud, as the tailgater's are yelling loud, The insanity rising from the crowd, and yet you always make me proud, Even in those times so intense, you always seem to convince, me to slow it down a bit, so that we can really make sense, you are my prince. Charming from a to z, as you inspire me through infinitely, Take hold of me, and caress me ever so gently. You are my grade A selection, my mental protection, as I ride life's hard erection, You carry me through with your love and affection...

July 26, 2008 - Saturday

hmmm.noo title yet... With one door open yet still crossing the line... Two paths separated in time, He questions himself all in his mind, He ponders upon tracks he has made, Will the footsteps be followed that he has laid, Will the seeds planted along the way; Blossom and bloom if he doe's not stay, Will the grass still be green and the sky blue, As he walks forward with his goals to pursue; The butterflies flutter all about, Something is needed to ease the doubt, As time ticks on and doesn't skip a beat, Will the morals shelter them from defeat. Save the irony for another day! Let his ambitions shine through and show the way, Opening all possibilities for each member. Warming the bitter frost of December, And when they ever meet again, His presence will still remain within, Just know every moment was worth their time, With one door open yet still crossing the line.

July 22, 2008 - Tuesday

Happines Is.... Happiness Is.... Happiness is what you provide each day as I am swept away in the abyss of your love and kindess, Your gentle words that carry me through that lift me up in all that I do, Happiness is that gentle kiss the one that lingers, the one that when you are away I so do miss, Happiness is your words that encourage this soul of mine, as we lay side by side and unwind, Happiness is the joy you have brought into my life, as you become the enitity that takes away all of my strife, Happiness is the smell of your skin, the gentle touch that makes me flutter from within, Happines is the way I feel each and everyday, the trust we share that say's everything is okay, Its not everyday that you meet someone as special and dear, that you know is on your side whether far or near, Happiness is a lifetime with your soulmate, an opening to a whole new worlds gate, Babe this is you from head to toe, and my love is forever this you know... So no matter what tommorow may bring, know that you are the song that i sing, The one that makes my heart bleed, as you constantly show me what i need, In my night in my day, each and every way, Let it be, The Happiness shared between you and me.... SG

Flexwriters/Mikki’s growth and Renewal.....
Category: Writing and Poetry

Today what I earn is the satisfaction of my every reaction from each and every fraction of my lifes span,
My answers coming from within my soul, as life takes its toll on what I know and the tribulations that make me grow,
Determined to find the peace that is so near, leaving behind those who don't care, falling into a happiness so rare, with only wisdom to share,
Concentrating on what means the most, but yet never forgetting the ghost, as I become the host of my eternal serenity, and begin to coast,
My heart has bled a million times, I have been fed a million lines, but all in all my determination to survive continues and shines,
Standing tall and proud to be the product of my own serenity yet not forgetting my iniquity as my final goal is my life's tranquility and showing myself i have that ability,
As I grow, I know, who was real and who was for show, and learning to let the one's who try to define me go,
Everyday its a new trial a new test, as i continue on my quest, to do my best before my soul is laid to rest....

SG

July 18, 2008 - Friday

untitled Touching each crooked line trying to make it straight, Wanting to forgive but can't let go of the hate, The prize is all that is confirmed each day, Reality has came and is here to stay, Sold my soul long time ago, Nothing left to console, Taken, Far from it all, Shaken, I fear the Fall, From Grace, All that I know, Everything inside, Love conquers all, As I abide, Its picture perfect but also has its flaws, Another man walks as the other man crawls, All sanity in tact carried by the fact, The air is much thinner now. I tend to take on much more, then what I can actually withstand, Till he consoles and take my hand, My soulmate is tied but by a thread, Each day with him happiness is led, This seems to be real, All that I feel, All the blood I have bled, So this trust I give may be the last, As my life seems to be spinning fast, Upon the highway of love and hate, As I decipher my own fate, A concoction of sorts that holds the key, Simplicity... Taking Over... It all spawns from within me...

July 4, 2008 - Friday

Intertwined... Intertwined With no divides No Little white lies, This Is where, Love Resides. Your heart beating next to mine Inhale Exhale It's so divine Leaving for a moment To Total Bliss EscapingThe outside world and the chatter I do not Miss Intertwined with no divides No little white lies nothing compares to this. Waking up to the softness of your kiss. For today, Honestly I feel The world is mine When I find myself Intertwined

My Space Blog/hehehehe

November 10, 2006 - Friday

Re:Fake ass people First Of all I have to say Fuck Off!!! If you are here to talk shit I really do not care! Nothing said can move me... If I do not like you its for a reason... More than likely a really good reason... I dont kiss ass dont suck dick and never ever have loved a TRICK..... BITCH KEEP MY NAME OUT OF YOUR DICK SUCKIN MOUTH!!! TO EVERYONE ELSE... THANKS FOR BEING MY MYSPACE FRIENDS!MWUAH!!!

March 25, 2007 - Sunday

Purpose We have met for a purpose.... Don't question the complexity.... Only look toward fate and true destiny.... Carla

My Space Blog/hehehehe

September 5, 2007 - Wednesday

MY LIFE.... Current mood: creative KEYWORD FOR TODAY: MY LIFE=CARLA’S LIFE if you dont know what’s going on in my life please don’t just assume... take time to ask me i haven’t bitten you yet well i did stab one of you with a meat tendorizer fork but you already know what the deal is.... But all in all, what I am saying is if you are sooo busy trying to figure out my life then hey more power to you... FOR THE RECORD IT WOULD BE MUCH EASIER TO ASK ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON... AND TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL I AM TALKING ABOUT....YOUR GOOD AND UMMM TALK TO YA SOON!!!WINK WINK!!! NO HARD FEELINGS JUST PUTTING IT ON BLAST BECAUSE YOU WON’T OBVIOUSLY...

February 19, 2008 - Tuesday

Untitled Current mood: thankful Today is a day lost if I continue with out you, You are the gift left for me each day that I continue, For our paths were crossed with much reason from above, As strangers we did meet and it has led to unconditional love, Countless days countless hours you have placed smiles upon me, As you wander about embedding footprints in my heart ever so gently, I can't take for granted the time I am blessed here, Because of my friends and family's love that I have share, If my time would expire right now on this day, I know the love of my friends and family would send me on my way. Thank you for everything you do be it big or small, And know I will be there if ever you should call. 2/19/08

February 25, 2008 - Monday

Challenged by birth...Untitled Current mood: indescribable Rhetoric unstable events, consequential elements,sparatically crossing the fence,begging for confidence, Sentiments evaded, segregated,sunlight shaded, morals faded,somewhat baited, Is this really destiny,do you love me,kissing me gently,I take responsibility, The dice have been rolled yet again,as we dance upon the sin,of where to begin,and when, The tempo moves faster,I choose disaster,as I capture the wrath of my master. Sinking down, I feel the ground, I can barely hear the sound,because the red tape is all around. Can't place blame, I came, heard your name,and now I swim in the pool of shame.

February 25, 2008 - Monday

Challenged by birth...The Instigater Current mood: indescribable The Instigater I am not perfection,I seek direction,as I ride upon the erection of lifes hard, My thoughts are deep,my soul I fight to keep,yet my wounds seep,and my mind is scarred, Don't take me as a fool, because you will be my tool, as I school you in yet another lesson, My strength comes from wars within, the trials the sin,as I begin to pen this aggression. My life I release, letting out the beast, as I write each peice, and you feast upon each line, I am not a hater, segregator,investigator, intimidater,just an instigater placed here to masturbate your mind.

February 25, 2008 - Monday

Challenged by birth....The Good Fight Current mood: indescribable An inch away from insanity bruised from the calamity and unknown destiny that calls for me, True purpose hanging outside as I look within knowing not where to begin to place the trials and the sin, Beaten bloody sent away looking for the brighter day as I send all the good astray, All around me the questions are hung,as I am sprung, around the twisted tounge that reels in the young. Choosing between wrong and right,dieing slowly within the plight,can't sleep at night yet fighting the good fight.

February 26, 2008 - Tuesday

Challenged by birth....Castle In The Sky Current mood: indescribable Another day, a dream away, peace, and serinity,makes its way, One,two,three,taken from reality, its me, surrounded by a daydreamers destiny, No more illusions,tainted with dillusions,only intelligent conclusions, There is no pain, everyone here is sane,no words in vain,no reason to complain, Love fills the air,innocence is everywhere,points are made clear,there is nothing to fear, No bills to pay,no deadlines for today,no games to play,sunshines like the month of may, This castle in the sky,set to sanctify,purify,and happiness can only magnify.

March 3, 2008 - Monday

Challenged by birth...Pusherman Pusherman pusherman send me another line to inhale because I feel without it I will fail, Take me to that place where I can find that pot of gold the place where age never gets old, Pusherman pusherman sell me just another small hit so I can get lit and lose thought of all this shit. So I can soar with birds in the sky lifted high and not worry how I’m gonna get by, Pusherman pusherman let me have a little more as I ignore the demons knocking at my door, What you serve takes the edge off my swerve and gives me that piece of pleasure that I deserve. Pusherman pusherman just give me one last toke as I am lost within the smoke before the red tape surrounds me and I begin to choke, Its the high that i seek, I feel invincible so to speak, this drug takes over and makes me weak. Pusherman pusherman your drug called love is intoxicating keeps me waiting never fading for this drug there is no rating. ~The best love that you can give or receive is unconditional~Carla

March 17, 2008 - Monday

Challenged by birth....Diamond In The Rough Diamond In The Rough... He is the diamond in the rough, The sparkling jewel of my life, My constant could not describe him enough, He is the diamond in the rough, Makes me smile if only for awhile, The one that takes away the pain, The one who shelters me from the rain, He is the diamond in the rough, The one I hold close to my heart, He is the one that makes me laugh, The one that walks me through this path, He is my diamond in the rough, The one who holds the key, If only for a minute and hour a day, He is the one who steals my heart away.

March 18, 2008 - Tuesday

Singing With Langston Hughes (Flexwriters Dead Poets Collab) Current mood: blessed I, Too, sing a tune of Seoul I, too, sing a tune of Seoul. I am the orphan child. They sent me across the seas, To learn on my own, But I am proud, To be who I am, Despite the mockeries. Everyday, I smile, Because they may judge. But Definitely, They don’t know me, I do not hold a grudge, Just Integrity, Anyways, With each stone that is cast my way, I am grateful for my life each day. I, too, sing a tune of Seoul To check out some more please go here: FlexWriters Cafe

March 20, 2008 - Thursday

Challenged By Birth...My Love Is Not A Curse Current mood: blessed It is a bit ironic this love so plutonic your strength so bionic as I drown in life’s tonic, You know me, my complexity, as it should be, mentally, physically,sexually, You know my move befor I make it, when I fake it, what I will do to shake it, when I can and I can’t take it, Even when I am not at my best, you see me above the rest, as I watch this love manifest, who would have guessed,I would be so blessed, It is you that has shown me so much more, you win the final score, as I adore, your very core, I never have been loved like this befor, You look at the shattered glass, watch me pass moving fast, even when your left feeling last, you see the beauty in this outcast, If I were to take my last breath of air, I would know you were there, treated me so amazing even when it did not seem fair, no one could come between this love we share, So as I write this verse, and feel my heart is gonna burst,and everything may seem like it’s going in reverse know that my love is not a curse.

March 21, 2008 - Friday

Broken Link Current mood: bitchy Detections, revealing imperfections, misguided directions, my darkest secrets protections, not your grade A selections, It all has a cost, As I exhaust , I am lost, In my own life long holocaust, My very own bitter frost, Time to think, Time to drink, As I sink, And try to fix this broken link. As I steal, Another meal, Try to voice, How I feel, And see what is REAL.

March 21, 2008 - Friday

Endless Circle Current mood: blah Round and Round, Circles and Time, Left On the Line, I smile, I say, Everything is fine, Make no mistake, I aprecciate, My presence, as I am drained, By the existince, Of Life’s High, Life’s Low, As I continue, In this maze, That Feel’s, Like An Endless Circle.

March 26, 2008 - Wednesday

Challenged by birth... Forever Category: Writing and Poetry Forever Love revolves even when your away, In my thoughts my dreams my nights and my day, My beloved you know who you are, My love, unconditionally yours by far, I am lost forever in love with you, Perserverence, Eternity, Destiny, all I pursue, Is shown to me each day in all that you do, I am lifted by your love inspired by your dreams, Your eyes sparkle like diamonds and your true self gleems, Your Joy brings me peace and your smile brings me light, As you remain in my heart to infinity each day and every night, With each new path that you may choose to endeavor, Know that my heart will remain yours forever.

April 17, 2008 - Thursday

Just some lines for today.... Current mood: indescribable Trials tribulations, resignations, time to set forth my own deviations, Natural disasters mentally unstable to be anyones fairytale fable, New thoughts come in as i contemplate the unforgivable sin within. To just be able to exhale, as I fail, and in the end I begin to derail. No satisfaction just a chain reaction that is just the beginning just a fraction. Judge me or judge me not, always the truth i sought,my soul has already been bought. Losing self is easy to do when you forget to focus on you, the beginning or the end I must do what I gotta do.

April 22, 2008 - Tuesday

words...words...and more words... Somewhat tempermental, sentimental, with a touch so gentle.Living life like a rockstar with its ups and downs going out of bounds fighting the rounds as I inhale the deepest of sounds.Metaphorically speaking, with some bass boom tweaking, as my mind is forever geeking upon the innerside of me leaking outloud.Stranded in a daze, this fire burning full blaze, as the outsiders begin to taze and the young ones still here to amaze me.Blindfolded and cut with a dull knife's blade, ambitions fade, under the gloomy shade of the darkened crusade.Like a gentle breeze swept off the seas I exhale the damage that stings like bees but yet in the end I hear the echoes of the dues and the fees.Underneath the moonlit stars, only I know the inner scars, caused by the crashing cars, sedated by smoke filled bars.Takin it all in with stride, morals begin to subside, within my heart I confide, as if everything else has died.

You aint got the best of me....

You aint got the best of me....
Its been shown over history...
your ignorance your misery...
but don't think you have won...
you aint got the best of me...
Given too much...
been your steppin stone...
been your crutch...
taken for granted...
a broken backbone...
as you sang your silver spoon lines...
Not another day not another lie...
This aint no sorrowful Goodbye...
This is reality...
You aint got the best of me...
Yeah you think you got the world in your hands...
Pity for you and your dumb ass demands...
I may not have it all figured out...
as my world has its clout...
and i may be ridin on a razor fence...
but i am not at my mamas house bein called the brown eyed prince...
it never was never meant to be...
you aint got the best of me...
as you carry queens of sorrow on your back...
oh yeah and your bullshit sex you call ectasy it was wack...
as you cry because you were bitten by a flea...
just remember you aint got the best of me...

May 26,2008 Monday

Pain....

When you’re cut it can heal, you may be down for a few.
When you’re emotionally hurt, you may be down for a century or two.
Emotional pain seems harder to survive through.
At the end of the day these concepts connect as one...

PAIN

Flexxin With Mikki/ Flexwriters Challenge

Just a lil somethin...off the top of my dome...no corrections made...just was writing the Release Challenge with Mikki....


It's mathematical,
simple subtraction,
minus you,
Equals my satisfaction,
I don't feel the pain,
Don't feel blue,
Only see rainbows,
Left in a sky so blue,
I am me,
Never to be,
taken for granted,
by angry brutality,
So as you walk,
your path of shame,
go ahead,
erase my name,
outta your mind,
outta your cell,
remember the lesson,
that i taught so well,
i told you once,
i told you twice,
now the third time,
aint gonna be nice,
so cancel me out,
out of your life,
outta your night,
outta your day,
and back the F*$@
UP
and stay out my way....

SG

May 28,2008

He is my poetry....

He is my poetry...
Exhale, take a moment to breathe,
thats what i say, as I try to conceive,
the thoughts that race to and fro,
yet in the end I know,
Truly,
He is my poetry,
He walks upon the sunlit sky,
Keeping my heart,
On a natural high,
Breath taking by sudden glances,
As he trances me,
With his brilliant beauty,
He is the wind,
That wisps through the air,
As I smile upon,
Days of him near,
His strength could carry,
A thousand pounds,
His stamina fights,
A million rounds,
The fragrant smell,
Of his skin,
Raises all sexual innuendos,
From within,
My deepest fantasies,
Enlightened when,
He captivates my mind,
And enters within,
He is my poetry,
His march is a million,
Plus one,
His work is never done,
But yet he smiles,
As he is carried away,
Taken on each and every day,
He is the one that believes in me,
He is my poetry,
Mentally, physically,emotionally,
Stable,
Some thing told,
In a fairytale fable,
I don't try to change,
The way he love's me,
Because my heart says,
He is my poetry.
If the Lord should,
ever say its my time,
and I have written,
my very last line,
For eternity,
I know,
He is my poetry...

Wednesday May 28,2008

June 1st Sunday

Secrets behind walls,
behind smiles,
His bruising hands,
his lips full of denial,
Crashing down,
like a crashing car,
I wonder about my children,
Can they see this,
And where they are,
Silently this becomes my muse,
A statistic in a case of abuse,
I have come to far for this,
This fury this rage is his,
Letting go this time,
Was easier than before,
As I close a once open door.
SG
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June 2, 2008

Conflicts arise,
Yet I despise,
The tears in their innocent eyes,
Time to switch gears,
Leaving yesterdays fears,
As the sunset nears,
Singing in the rain,
Shouting out the stain,
Allowing what strengthens me to remain,
As I demonstrate,
To release the hate,
To enlighten my fate,
Taking it day by day,
Watching the children play,
All sadness left in the month of may.
SG

As I circumcise the thorns that try to destroy me from within,
I am left surrounded with a new tribulation to begin,
It feels like a soft breeze as I exhale,
As I pick up the pieces,
over again,
I drink the juices that are poured each day,
Feast upon midnight thoughts as I pray,
Never to forget how far I have came,
Countless hours march on,
Yet my goal still the same,
I watch curiously as people move to and fro,
Dropping a dime when it's my turn to sow,
Yet the smiles still linger,
Like dancing stars,
On a Broadway show,
Time to massage the neocortex,
Inhale what comes next,
Take it all in with stride,
Stay On top,
And enjoy the ride....
SG

June 4,2008 Wed.

Choices You Have Made

You despise my being not even seeing the seed that you have sown has has caused the pain that you own,
As my ink overflows, anything goes, because I have chose to release and exhale my peace,
As they interrogate my life, you bring on your own strife, I refuse to be brought down as I laugh upon your clown,
It's not everyday you meet a woman like me, as I carry no empathy, for your games that cover up the scars, I stay up like shining stars,
So keep on with your childish ways, your drama plays, but know you can't control me, as I reside in tranquility,
I laugh now at how hard you try to imply, the pureness that is covered in dirt, just remember this, it's never me that you hurt,
Every end has a beginning, everyday you are sinning, as i sit back I realize, even though you try to cut me with the sharpest blade, just remember when your 10 feet under you will have to deal with the choices you have made....

June 25,2008 Wednesday

Wednesday June 25,2008

Inhaling life exhaling strife forgetting the past starting a new life,
Letting go, Feeling the flow,
livin life is the key, as I walk past the misery,
Steppin stones, never broke my bones,
maybe slowed me down, but I am still around,
Rainy Day, Fades away,
the constant shall remain, as you subtract my pain,
Still the same, you know your name,
you are the one, who lights my sun,
They may scream, over my dream,
but they don't know, you make me glow,
Like shining stars, you stopped crashing cars,
under the moonlight, with intense delight,
Loving you, see's me through,
left feeling like a queen, with all I have seen,
Take a chance, upon romance,
don't think twice, roll the dice.
Live and learn, take what you earn,
if all else fails, out live your fairytales,
One time to live, all to give,
do what feels right, kissing by candlelight,
Summer breeze, my minds at ease,
having no fear, when you are near.

Is it written somewhere......

Is it written somewhere,
Somewhere in that book of life,
That the happiness I have,
The happiness I have ,
this moment,
this time,
Shall be what carries me,
What carries me through,
Till the day I say goodbye,
Is it written somewhere,
Somewhere in that book of life,
That today can last a lifetime,
The peace I have right now,
This moment,
Shall continue,
Continue forever,
Is it written somewhere,
Somewhere in that book of life,
That I have left all the ghosts behind,
Behind the screaming voices,
Behind the beaten path,
So I can hold my head up,
Hold my head up high,
And laugh,
Is it written somewhere,
Somewhere in that book of life,
The red tape is now disintegrated,
Into what I used to know,
What I really hated,
What I knew was hell,
Hell on this earth,
Is it written somewhere,
Somewhere in that book of life,
That I can now paint daisy's,
With polka dot petals,
Feel the softness of you,
With every breath you take,
Every promise you make,
Dance upon clouds,
Up high,
Is it written somewhere.

June 28,2008 Saturday

Pages

If I take a moment,
A moment to think,
About the many pages,
The many pages,
I have filled,
Filled with love,
Filled with Hate,
Filled with rage,
They all are stories,
Stories set in my mind,
As I release quietly,
The otherwise unknown,
Sometimes scattered,
Sometimes thought through
But so eloquently,
Eloquently Placed,
Yet all a part of me,
Each page complimetary,
Set fire with the ink flame,
But it all tells a story,
Not for fortune,
Not for fame,
It's just me,
What stay's locked in,
whats held beneath the key,
So very complex,
Yet a written memory,
Page's written like records,
over and over again,
so many pages,
of how i feel within.
July 28,2008-Saurday

Above The Sea

June 30, 2008 - Monday

I was surrounded, surrounded by, The crashing sea, I felt so helpless, As it engulfed me, Pulling me down, Down under, Underneath, Sinking, Slowly, My heart beating, Beating as I sank, Sank down, In the cold sea, No breath, Left to breathe, The pressure hitting, Beating me down, I was caught under, Under the sea, No one, No One around, Losing faith, Losing hope, Losing all I knew, All Sanity, Left, Feeling it was time, Time to cross over, To that bitter, That bitter end, I shed a tear, Said a prayer, Gave up hope, And then, Miraculously, Gleaming Light, Glistening Jewel, My Treasure, You, Encouraged Me, Lifted Me, Patiently, From the bottom, Very bottom, To the top, So high, High Above the sea, Now I can say, I can shout, I can scream, I am Alive, And now I breathe, above the sea... Monday June 30,2008